Chapter 5 - Ties That Bind

Explaining the unexplainable to an eight-year-old requires a delicate balance of honesty and gentleness. Sitting on the living room floor, with Mark holding my hand and Sarah sitting quietly on the armchair, I told Lily the truth.
I didn't use words like "kidnapping" or "crime." I told her that when she was a tiny baby, a terrible mistake happened at the hospital. I told her that Kate had loved her very much, but that Kate was not her biological mother.
I pointed to Sarah. "This lady here, her name is Sarah. And she has been looking for you since the day you were born. She is your real mommy."
Lily stared at Sarah, her wide hazel eyes blinking rapidly. "But my name is Lily."
"You can still be Lily," Sarah said, her voice cracking as she slipped off the armchair and knelt on the floor with us. "You can be Lily, or Elara, or anything you want to be. I just want to know you."
Lily looked at me for confirmation. I nodded, smiling through my tears. "It's okay, sweetheart. She loves you so much."
Slowly, hesitantly, Lily stepped toward Sarah. Sarah didn't rush her. She just held out her arms, and when Lily finally leaned into them, Sarah broke down, sobbing into the little girl's shoulder.
The transition was agonizingly slow. For the first two weeks, Sarah and Lily stayed at a hotel nearby, and they came to my house every day. I taught Sarah all of Lily's quirks: how she hated the crusts on her sandwiches, how she needed the closet door shut tightly at night, how she loved to paint but hated getting her hands dirty.
I watched the two of them bond over baking in my kitchen, a bittersweet ache blooming in my chest. I was losing my niece, but I was watching a mother find her child.
However, the shadow of Kate still loomed over us. The trial was approaching, and the prosecution wanted me to testify to establish Kate's state of mind and the timeline of her sudden "pregnancy."
I visited Kate in jail one last time before the trial.
Sitting across from her on the other side of the thick glass, I felt like I was looking at a stranger. She looked hollowed out, her eyes devoid of the spark I had known my whole life.
"Emily," she whispered into the phone receiver. "How is she?"
"She's adjusting," I said coldly. "She's with Sarah."
Kate flinched at the name. "I loved her, Em. You have to believe me. When I lost my baby, I lost my mind. I walked into that hospital and I just... I just wanted my baby back. And there she was. I didn't plan it. I just took her."
"You took another woman's life, Kate," I said, my voice hardening. "You let Sarah mourn a child that was alive. I can never forgive you for that. And I have to testify against you."
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Kate closed her eyes, tears leaking through her lashes. "I know. Do what you have to do to protect her. Tell Lily... tell her I'm sorry."
I hung up the phone and walked away, leaving my sister behind in the prison she had built for herself.